hmm yah here is a thought for ya.

dont be a fucking mean prick to me.

Im the one who is with your kids all day.

Im the one who controls nap times.

Therefor I am the one who controls what time they go to bed every night.

Making me also the one who controls their moods.

Dont be mean to me.

Pay back is a bitch.

Think about it next time you want to be an ass.

what a fucking asshole.

pay me what I fucking deserve.

dont question me like I am some immature 14year old girl home alone for the first time.

crying before 8am is not how I like to start my day.

fuck you. 

have a great fucking day, you rude son of a bitch. 

To all my friends that I havnt seen in a while.

Im thinking of you all! Wishing I could go out for drinks or food right now. Its been a long couple weeks and I still have another week to go before I get a break!! Going to Kingston for July 1st weekend. It will be good.

Love you all.

Miss you all even more.

xoxox

After an exhausting 3 1/2 hour drive home from the cottage with two kids under the age of 3 I didnt think my day could get any worse.

I still had to drop off a cheque for Paul, hoping that he wouldnt be home but still secretly wishing he would be there just so he could see me. Maybe still hoping something was there between us but I know there can never be. Drove there and no one was there, perfect. Just dropped it off.

Come home, nap time for the kids. And then it really started. Screaming. Crying. Whining. Complaining about something I cant really hear. I go and investigate. OH yes there is was. Bum cream or to some .. diaper cream. To all those who dont know what it truly is.. it consists of zinc and some kind of oil based shit. Well oil based anything doesnt come out of carpet, clothing and hair very well.

There standing in the middle of the room is a 3 year old little boy, with only a t-shirt on. Butt naked with a bum completly covered in white, thick bum cream. Oh yes covered.

Needless to say I wasnt happy. While I went downstairs to check out on the internet what would take bum cream out of the carpet I hear a noise… in the garage. He some how got out of his room and was playing with john deere.Time out and early bed time tonight.

Mom and Dad came over with some wine, rum and vodka and to tell me some stories. Finally relaxed a little. But it all starts again tomorrow.

Going on my 11th straight day of work and starting to feel the pain of being a mom. I only have to work until next FRIDAY! FML!!

night night xo

started my day with a present! a 100 dollar diesel wallet. thank you family I nanny for. had a wonderful day by the pool with the kids and the fam.

couldnt have asked for a better day.

mama taylor is tired though, its not even 11. ugh. being a mom blows sometimes.

off to bed.

Feeling better about everything. Trying to just focus on me right now, my job, my close friends and my amazing family. Things will fall into place without my having to cry and puke about them. I had my moment but now its time to keep going.

Here we go..

LOVE that they are going away for a week. An extra 1100 bucks is mine! Muaha! Enjoy the trip :) and Thank you! xox

this is too much to deal with right now. you probably dont even remember because you were so stoned but it doesnt make it okay. time for a little break from you.you said you wanted to miss me. well here you go.

also seeing him today was unexpected. the first time in 6months he is finally home and Im so anxious, nervous, scared and excited, I puked. yup. fml.